Pleading Not Guilty

I’m tired of saying sorry.

I’m tired of feeling bad.

I’m tired of people telling me to be happy for what I have.

I’m sick of disapproving looks.

I’m sick of disappointing clicks.

I’m sick of people commenting on the many ways that make me tick.

I know I get frustrated.

I know I complain a lot,

but I’m not lazy; I work hard for what I want.

I don’t expect miracles.

I don’t expect the impossible,

because what I ask for is reasonable; what I ask for is plausible.

I ask for respect no matter what I look like.

I ask for recognition for ideas that are mine.

I ask for responsibility despite moving away because these things about myself shouldn’t determine my day to day.

I ask for communication despite talking a lot.

I ask for assurance when I’m having anxious thoughts.

I ask for companionship despite moving away because these things about myself don’t determine my day to day.

So now, before the court –

a jury of my peers,

I plead to you, not guilty for how I may appear.

I’m not needy and desperate.

I’m not boring and crazy,

and least of all, I’m not sorry or lazy.

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